I miss the past so much right now, it almost hurts.

Even though that small beach town was full of gossip, backstabbing and pathetic fights, I really miss living in PD. I miss my friends. Every single one of them. I miss my school.

So far, 2006 was definitely the best year out of all my 16 years of living. I was in form 1 and I miss my 1A10 days soooo much. I even miss how STPD was probably the only school who numbered their classes backwards where #A10 was the first class and #A1 was the last. I miss seeing those same faces every morning. How we all used to gather at someone's desk in class before school started, copying each others homework cos we didnt complete ours the night before while talking and telling ridiculous stories.

I miss listening to the class erupt in laughter because one of the boys made a silly comment or joke. I miss how someone in the class would say "boo sama (insert name here)" and everyone would go "boooo" and how during exams, someone would go "diamlah (insert name here)" and it would carry on like a chain. I even kinda miss Low teasing me about 007 (inside joke).

I miss those little sketches we used to do for english literature and how our sejarah teacher who pronounced my name as 'meetchel' always started off our sejarah class with a verbal quiz and not allowing us to sit until we answered a question right and how we all used to imitate our old science teacher whose command of english was atrocious.

I miss those daily after school sessions where we sat around eating junk food bought from the van outside the school and talking as the boys ran around whipping each other with their ties while waiting to be picked up by our parents. I remember asking Hasvin for some of his chips every day even though I knew it was gonna be a tough task. He was so stingy about his chips back then. HAHAH. I miss the silly things Joshua Daran used to say which never failed to make Carol and I laugh and I miss talking to Joshua D.Louis under the tree everyday.

I remember how insanely crowded the canteen used to be during recess and how the ques were endless. The girls and I used to buy those juices with aloe vera bits in it from the vending machine almost every day and always checked each others teeth because the juice would stain our teeth.

I remember how the form 4 kids used the 'popular' kids back then and it was a cool thing to be friends with a senior. Their all off at college now. I wonder if they all stayed friends up to now. I sure as hell hope my friends and I dont drift any further than we already have. I still love them the same as back then.

I miss how everyone used to be. I dont like how everyone's changed so much, myself included. Even though we've matured in certain ways for the better, there are a few things I wish wouldnt change. I miss the old us. Not just my '1A10 gang' as we used to call ourselves but I miss everyone I knew from STPD.

Even you. Just like everyone else, you've changed so much. Now you're all about acting 'cool' and cocky. I miss the old you, the nice you. The you who used to talk to me all the time. I miss your old hair and your old laugh. I miss how you used to laugh at my lame jokes instead of just saying "ookaaaay" like you do now. Most of all I miss your old smile. Your real genuine boyish smile. I hardly see it anymore.

Those were just a few of the countless memories I have from my old high school. As eager as I am to graduate high school and not have to sit for school exams and abide ridiculous school rules, I really want to go back to form 1 in STPD.

Times have changed and so have you.