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• Ive been having dreams of different boys every night. So random. I wonder if its my hearts way of telling me to move on, at least for now. No matter what, you'll always have a special, permanent place in my heart. I can only hope for the future.
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• I think Im starting to grow up a little. I still do act on impulse and talk without thinking (which still does get me in trouble sometimes) but I find myself maturing a little, mentally and emotionally. It scares me. Im terrified of growing up and taking on new responsibilities. Im terrified of all my todays and tomorrows becoming yesterdays and all my experiences becoming nothing but memories. Im terrified of having to let go of so much especially since I have such a hard time doing so no matter how hard I try and yet I find myself starting to let go in just the tiniest, ity bittiest of ways. Im terrified of the future, the future that Im looking forward to at the same time. Its a good but scary feeling. Is this what growing up is supposed to feel like ?
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• Every time I pass high school juniors, I cant help but feel sort of old (I know it sounds ridiculous since Im barely 16) and a little superior, like I know so much more than them (Im not talking about booksmart but just high school experiences and that sorta thing). Is this how you form 4 and form 5 classes of '06 felt when my freshman class came prancing into STPD, excited at the thought of being high school kids, thinking we were so cool ? Makes me laugh when I think about it.
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• Im spending too much time under the sun. Ive become so dark ! Im not one of those people who are concerned about their skin tone. Never have been but when I looked in the mirror today, I was like "whoa". This is a result from staying back at school so often to build and blast the water rocket for physics and skating in the blazing afternoon heat. I was aware the whole time that I would be going back home a few shades darker but didnt really care. I didnt think it was gonna be this bad. Okay, Im exaggerating. Its not thaaaat bad. But keep this up and youre gonna be the girly version of Akon, Michelle.
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• I've got a pile of uncompleted homework due. I wish I was a cow so if my teachers ask me why I didnt complete any of their homework, I can just go right up to their faces and say "mooooooo". Actually, I can do that now, in my human form if I wanted to but then they might force me into getting a psychiatric evaluation and we all dont wanna know that result
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• I woke up this morning, looked in the mirror, and said "good morning, sunshine !" Dont give me that look. No one else wants to greet me good morning like that okay. Yes, I talk to my reflection all the time.
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• I didnt go to church the whole of Holy week cos moms still insistent on going to St. Anne's. If youre an avid reader of my blog, you'll know why Im so against that church. Refer to post 09 April 2009.
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• I was typing the word 'strawberry' but accidentally typed 'star' instead of 'straw'. That made me smile, I dont know why. I think 'star' is a pretty word.
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• Ive been eating chocolate every single day for the past 2 weeks. Time for a crash diet la. *cue scary music*
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• I think Kyren thinks Im weird. In the 'youre so weird, I dont even wanna know you' kinda way. HAHAH.
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• Im really happy I chose pure science stream instead of arts. I dont regret it one bit.
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• I really wish I could lick my elbow.
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• I couldnt sleep last night so I decided to text Shayne.
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  Me: guess what ? Im sitting on my bed, in my pjs, wearing heels. how cool am I ?
  Shayne: Im in my boxers, on my bed with a santa hat. how cool are we !
  Me: oh hell yeah bebeh ! we be the coolest jamaicans on da block.
  Shayne: hey marn, do you like ma hair marn ? (jamaican accent)
  Me: HAHAHAHAH ! apasal lu tada tido lagi ? (apek accent)
  Shayne: sebab arr... itu stomach arr... banyak banyak hungry o, tapi saya takut mau tulun bawah sendili ambik makan, lumah saya arr... bawah ada momok punya.
  *after texting each other nonsense for a while*
  Me: saya ada bangun pukul 2pm hari ini, skarang saya sudah terlalu aktif oh tapi saya kena cuba tido la. esok ada schl. nighty night, peanuthead.
  Shayne: tidak berapa-apa! kamu mau tido arr, sangat senang punya wo! lu tutup mata dan ingat itu kambing bili-bili lompat punya. sangat senang mau tido punya.
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  Itu peanuthead banyak punny punya oh. (: