GAHH !

I'm so frustrated.

Had a total of one and a half hours sleep last night. Woke up for school literally feeling like a zombie. Arrived at school in complete bitch mode. Nothing but violent thoughts about the students around me and profanities were running through my mind on the way to class. Was cursing and swearing under my breath at the slightest of things.

During math, felt like going up to Screamo (private nickname we gave our math/add math teacher) who was, as usual, screaming at the class, and slapping her. Oh, how good it would feel if only I could do that. I told myself not to hate any of my teachers this year cos when I usually hate a teacher, I end up disliking the subject he/she teaches but Screamo is an exception. *through gritted teeth* I just cant stand her.

My heartbreaker situation is getting better. Sort of. I really am changing from the sad, depressed girl I used to be. I am going to stop over-analysing every single detail of every single step I take and just act on impulse like I used to. I'm starting to already. No drastic changes but in some ways, I am slowly morphing into who I used to be and who I want to be. Gradually, I will start to heal.

Had a deep conversation with Theresa about all of this. I told her everything about how I have trouble letting go, how I'm still walking around with a broken heart, how I'm trying to heal in time, how badly I just wanted to live again. And she said something so obvious that I hadnt really realized or considered. She said:

"so live then. if thats what you want, then do it. live."

I must sound like a total bimbo right now. Let me try to explain. Theres something about the way she said it. I think I had an epiphany. I realized its actually easier than I've been making it out to be. I've been blaming people for my misery, believing that everyone is ever ready to tear me down and watch me fall. This whole time I thought I was fighting everyone else but I've really been battling myself and not even knowing it. This isnt going to be such a tough battle anymore. It was just one of those moments where you feel like something knocked you in the head and you suddenly see things in a clearer manner.

I'll shut up now before I start with my broken record syndrome and bore you to death. I havent eaten anything since this morning and I'm starving so I'm going to look for food. Will post the convos at school that cheered me up and had me giggling tomorrow or something.

p/s:

• Theresa darling, thank you for the very long conversation we had. I didnt realize how much I needed that. You were very insightful.
• Sasha, I know how much it hurts to have your heart broken. I feel your pain, sweetie. I'm always on the other line of your phone if you want to talk when you feel like the male species sole mission in life is to hurt you. I feel that way too sometimes.

*sigh* looks like its heartbreak season.

I'M HUNGRY.

Random ;

Webcamming with Shayne, my peanuthead last night. I swear, his facial expressions are hilarious. He was showing me his new moustache which is growing on either side of his upper lip. He named one side fluffy and the other side fluffy squared. Pictures below speak for themselves.

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brushing his moustache.

straightening his moustache with a straightening iron.

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He got really into it after that. He moisturized and applied gel on it too. Fucking hilarious. I was in stitches the whole time.

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Online with Roisin, Sasha and Janus.

These are just bits and pieces of our convo that I feel are blogworthy.

I coloured the names and edited the convo layout a little so its easier to read.
FYI, we can all speak perfect english ok. The ridiculous apek accents are just for laughs.

Puteri Aishah [Fuck it.] says:
i wanna be dumb blond
like, i was like
in the kitchen then like
i turned on the radio but no songs
then my mom was like
dude, that's the toaster
i mean. like, pfft whatever man.
*pushes boobs up*

Puteri Aishah [Fuck it.] says:
so anyways, janus plays the drums, guys. brb
Ray [spazziiee ro bug] says:
you hit things bang bang bang!
[ michelle ] says:
drums ? thats so cool ! and tres sexxxy !
seriously, I'd kill to play drums
[[ janusDavid ]] ;; Makes Love Seem So Easy. says:
why would you kill to play the drums?
[ michelle ] says:
cos then I'd go all rockstar out on the stage in my bra
and headbang to my own drumming
cos drummers are always shirtless
[[ janusDavid ]] ;; Makes Love Seem So Easy. says:
not ALL drummers are topless
[ michelle ] says:
the hot ones usually are.

TRAVIS BARKER ! I'd bang him ! ;)
Ray [spazziiee ro bug] says:
i'd go all the way shirtless dude.
[ michelle ] says:
after tht police kambing (coming) la ro.
must pakai bra
Ray [spazziiee ro bug] says:
PAYUDARA !

[[ janusDavid ]] ;; Makes Love Seem So Easy. says:
i've got to practice my drums now.

got an audition tomorrow
[ michelle ] says:
go bang things.
Ray [spazziiee ro bug] says:
GOOD LUCK ! BANG HARD !
Puteri Aishah [Fuck it.] says:
ur going already?
[ michelle ] says:
he has to bang something.

Hello.

Not much has been going on lately apart from the usual nonsensical conversations and musings at school.

Went to school on saturday for kk. Woke up at the ungodly hour of 8am on a saturday morning for a bloody 30 minute interact meeting. If youre not aware, I think school on saturdays is just plain wrong. It goes against everything I believe in.

Phoby was so late she missed the whole meeting, she was looking for us in the canteen. Saw her walk by so Ray (who was in a bright electric blue shirt) and I (who was in a black fall out boy shirt) hid from her by trying to blend in with the white wall in crazy poses. Remember crossing one leg over the other, Ray ? Or more like your inability to do so. HAHAH. Yeah, we do that a lot. It worked though, she actually didnt see us. It was probably cos she was on the other side of the canteen but we like to think it was because of our awesome camouflage skills.

Ray, being... well... Ray, was drinking two drinks at once so she had a straw on either corner of her mouth and stared at everyone that passed by with her eyes so wide, it looked like her eye balls were about to bulge out of her eye sockets. HAHAH. She saw a bird walking by and birds tend to hop more than they walk right, so Ray starts hopping along with it. I swear, she brings mental retardation to a whole new level.

The girls came home with me to do our PSK project. We didnt get very far. Skated in front of my house after that. Phoby finally started skating again, she couldnt for a while cos she had surgery for her scoliosis. But shes goooood now.

Was skating for 3 hours yesterday. Finally fell off my skateboard for the first time yesterday. How exciting. I was laughing on the floor by myself like a loon. HAHAH. I cant seem to fucking ollie, man. I wanna learn that so bad.

Mid-semester exams next week. Grrrr. I dont even have the slightest clue on whats coming out for any of my papers. I've hardly even been doing my homework lately. I need to revert to my study routine.

I had the sudden urge to jam my fingers in the door at school today. Chickened out cos Ray said I might get a blood clot under my nail. Ick ! I made my driver wait half an hour for me after school cos I randomly decided to go to my school library and read a book about inventions in hospitals. It was nice okay. It had big, bright, colourful pictures and everything was so easy to understand cos it was a childrens book. I suddenly feel like eating french fries.

Random ;

We started calling Ray 'Mr.Ma' ever since she developed this obsession with being an apek fisherman and wearing my gardeners yellow rubber boots. Now, she wants to start a pork industry. Everything she sells has to do with pork. It started with pork toothpaste and she came up with the slogan "like eating when youre brushing". Gross, I know but its hilarious. She drew an advertisement for her 'pork company' and everything. Shes planning to take over all the fast food joints. Shes going to turn KFC into KFP (kentucky fried pork) and McDonalds into Ma-Donald. I've never even seen Ray eat pork, shes just thrilled that it has to do with pigs. HAHAH. Oh, and she wants to have a band called 'My Man, Mr. Ma'.

Rays 'poems':
(in chinese coffee shop apek accent)

a fat boy sitting on a tree
then he fall down, like spaghetti
his fat face flat on the ground
after that, no more gigi.

youre eyes are round
like the almond
and youre figure oh
like number 80
make me feel naughty
got curls dangling-ling-ling
from your butt (pigs tail)
its even better than a mutt.

RANDOM.

• Ive been having dreams of different boys every night. So random. I wonder if its my hearts way of telling me to move on, at least for now. No matter what, you'll always have a special, permanent place in my heart. I can only hope for the future.
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• I think Im starting to grow up a little. I still do act on impulse and talk without thinking (which still does get me in trouble sometimes) but I find myself maturing a little, mentally and emotionally. It scares me. Im terrified of growing up and taking on new responsibilities. Im terrified of all my todays and tomorrows becoming yesterdays and all my experiences becoming nothing but memories. Im terrified of having to let go of so much especially since I have such a hard time doing so no matter how hard I try and yet I find myself starting to let go in just the tiniest, ity bittiest of ways. Im terrified of the future, the future that Im looking forward to at the same time. Its a good but scary feeling. Is this what growing up is supposed to feel like ?
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• Every time I pass high school juniors, I cant help but feel sort of old (I know it sounds ridiculous since Im barely 16) and a little superior, like I know so much more than them (Im not talking about booksmart but just high school experiences and that sorta thing). Is this how you form 4 and form 5 classes of '06 felt when my freshman class came prancing into STPD, excited at the thought of being high school kids, thinking we were so cool ? Makes me laugh when I think about it.
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RANDOM

• Im spending too much time under the sun. Ive become so dark ! Im not one of those people who are concerned about their skin tone. Never have been but when I looked in the mirror today, I was like "whoa". This is a result from staying back at school so often to build and blast the water rocket for physics and skating in the blazing afternoon heat. I was aware the whole time that I would be going back home a few shades darker but didnt really care. I didnt think it was gonna be this bad. Okay, Im exaggerating. Its not thaaaat bad. But keep this up and youre gonna be the girly version of Akon, Michelle.
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• I've got a pile of uncompleted homework due. I wish I was a cow so if my teachers ask me why I didnt complete any of their homework, I can just go right up to their faces and say "mooooooo". Actually, I can do that now, in my human form if I wanted to but then they might force me into getting a psychiatric evaluation and we all dont wanna know that result
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• I woke up this morning, looked in the mirror, and said "good morning, sunshine !" Dont give me that look. No one else wants to greet me good morning like that okay. Yes, I talk to my reflection all the time.
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• I didnt go to church the whole of Holy week cos moms still insistent on going to St. Anne's. If youre an avid reader of my blog, you'll know why Im so against that church. Refer to post 09 April 2009.
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• I was typing the word 'strawberry' but accidentally typed 'star' instead of 'straw'. That made me smile, I dont know why. I think 'star' is a pretty word.
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• Ive been eating chocolate every single day for the past 2 weeks. Time for a crash diet la. *cue scary music*
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• I think Kyren thinks Im weird. In the 'youre so weird, I dont even wanna know you' kinda way. HAHAH.
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• Im really happy I chose pure science stream instead of arts. I dont regret it one bit.
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• I really wish I could lick my elbow.
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• I couldnt sleep last night so I decided to text Shayne.
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  Me: guess what ? Im sitting on my bed, in my pjs, wearing heels. how cool am I ?
  Shayne: Im in my boxers, on my bed with a santa hat. how cool are we !
  Me: oh hell yeah bebeh ! we be the coolest jamaicans on da block.
  Shayne: hey marn, do you like ma hair marn ? (jamaican accent)
  Me: HAHAHAHAH ! apasal lu tada tido lagi ? (apek accent)
  Shayne: sebab arr... itu stomach arr... banyak banyak hungry o, tapi saya takut mau tulun bawah sendili ambik makan, lumah saya arr... bawah ada momok punya.
  *after texting each other nonsense for a while*
  Me: saya ada bangun pukul 2pm hari ini, skarang saya sudah terlalu aktif oh tapi saya kena cuba tido la. esok ada schl. nighty night, peanuthead.
  Shayne: tidak berapa-apa! kamu mau tido arr, sangat senang punya wo! lu tutup mata dan ingat itu kambing bili-bili lompat punya. sangat senang mau tido punya.
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  Itu peanuthead banyak punny punya oh. (:

Im trying really hard to be happy again. Im trying to be more optimistic, to be the person I used to be. The person I promised myself I would go back to being, the person I lost somewhere along the lines. I thought I was becoming that person again. I thought I was starting to look at the glass as half full. I cant help but feel like Im lying to myself. Like, deep down, I know its not always gonna be okay.

Truth is, I havent been changing. I've just been pretending to in an attempt to make myself feel better. I still find those pessimistic thoughts creeping into my mind. Im still trying not to care about anyone thinking this beforehand indifference will ease the pain when they find a way to hurt me, intentionally or not which Im constantly expecting. Im still constantly expecting the worst from everyone and everything, thinking that it wont hurt so much since I already saw it all coming. Im still hiding my heartache, still pretending every things alright when its not. Im still trying not to feel. Ive just been ignoring these feelings.

I had blocked everything and everyone out with that wall I built which Im finding impossible to tear down now. Letting go of the girl who was always so angry, the girl who was always too sad to give a fuck, the girl I turned into, is a lot harder than I thought.

I realized something today. I used to wake up feeling slightly excited without fail every morning. Now, I wake up everyday, sad, wishing I could go back to sleep, dreading facing the day. I can honestly say, I've completely forgotten what its like to feel genuinely happy. Apart from conversing with the people Im used to, conversations with fresher faces have become somewhat of a challenge. This is a result from me not wanting to get close to people for such a long time, that now, its like I've forgotten how. I've forgotten the lighthearted, free flowing conversations I used to have, even with people I barely knew.

Im not going to let this stupid wall I built dictate who I am, what I say and how I feel. I am going to giggle like a giddy school girl, have ridiculously easy conversations with just about anyone and smile genuine smiles again. I just dont know how but I'll figure it out. As for now, Im going to stop sounding like a broken record and face each fucking day with my head held high.

p/s: if you never broke my heart, I wouldve never realized I lost myself. thank you ?

I'm determined to love each day
more than Im afraid of it.
But, tell me, when do I start to heal ?

Random;

Me: *talking to Ray on my cell phone*
*my house phone starts ringing*
Ray: "dude, why are you making that noise ?"
Me: "dude ! thats my house phone ringing, you retard !"

Me: "if I had a puppy, I'd name it Paramore if its a girl and Cullen if its a boy."
Ray: "what if it was in between ? like a tranvestite dog ? what would you name it ?"
Me: "are there such things as tranny animals ? eww."
Ray: "c'mon, if there were, what would you name it ?"
Me: "maybe I'd combine Cullen and Paramore and-"
Ray: "Matthew."
Me: "what ? mathew ?"
Ray: "I dont know it just came to me, man."

IM-ing Yukesh.
[ michelle ] says: I started skating. dont laugh
[ ]901™ૐ says: why would i? im all bout doing things u love. remember when u used to sit in interesting places? i supported u right (= (inside joke)
[ michelle ] says: If you werent so funny, I would beat you to death with my skateboard
[ ]901™ૐ says: owh dayum. skate board? i can barely stand on one
[ michelle ] says: I couldnt really balance on it at first either. I taught myself to skate eventually tho, without falling.
[ ]901™ૐ says: wow im impressed
[ michelle ] says: you should be, I learned in one night
[ ]901™ૐ says: then its probably not that hard LOL
[ michelle ] says: grrrr, I really wanna smack you
[ ]901™ૐ says: ok la. I know. its hard la. yay for michelle and her low centre of gravity
[ michelle ] says: HHAHAHAHAHAHA. gimme a sec
[ ]901™ૐ says: ill give u 36 just in case.

He cracks me up like an egg on the floor.

RANDOMnesss.
Edit//


Wtf ? I just punched myself in the jaw by accident.
I was pulling on my tank top strap and it snapped
which made my fist accidentally punch my jaw.
Why do things like this only happen to me ?
HAHAHAH.

I had a typo, when I was logging in to facebook.
Instead of typing hotmail, I typed homail.
Get it ? Get it ? homail ? HAHAH.
That made me laugh. Heeee.

Sasha just told me she wrote a song
about maggi mee asam laksa cos
she likes it that much. HAHAH.
Oh, kelapa, you crack me up.

If I had a puppy, I'd name it Paramore if it was a girl
and Cullen if it was a boy...... I want a puppy !

My schools having bulan bahasa this month.
So theyre encouraging students to speak
bm on wednesdays and english on thursdays.
So Phoby, Ray and I have been speaking
chinese coffee shop apek bm every week
and we speak that way the whole day too,
even when we're being serious. Funny.

I just realized I have a shorter attention span than I thought.
I cant even pay attention during movies for long.
I get distracted easily and get restless.

I thinks its unbelievable how fucked up people are.
I'm not talking about anyone in particular.
I'm talking about people in general.

A stupid butterfly just flew into my living room.
I freaked out and immediately stood up on the couch
(automatic reflex, I do that every time I see a cockroach).
until I realized theres no point cos the damn thing flies.
(felt puhreety stupid after that)
So I ran out of my living room, yelling for my maid.
I made her beat it to death with a rolled up newspaper.

EDIT//

Finally decided to stop procrastinating and get around to blogging. Blogging is starting to feel like homework to me. I was tempted to delete it but its just too many rants and raves and memories to erase with one click. Couldnt bring myself to do it.

Went out with Ray on friday to go buy me a skateboard (my latest phase, hahah) at Rupert Rage. Picked her up on the way (thank God for drivers) and headed to Sarawak Plaza. Didnt think Rupert Rage would be open yet so we decided to kill time by entering a toy store we walked by. There wasnt anyone there except for a few random adults and the sales assistants. It was pretty empty and quiet. Back in my day, toy stores were always full of noisy kids, running around, begging their parents to buy them something to play with. Hahah, sorry, couldnt help it. I think Ray and I made the most noise there. We giggled at and played with everything that wasnt sealed in a box. It was fun. This toy fire truck suddenly started blaring its sirens the minute Ray and I stepped in front of it, which gave us a fright and sent us running away from it. HAHAHAH.

Walked to centrepoint, where Rupert Rage was. Neither of us had been there before and we were pretty scared. If it wasnt for the semi-functioning shops and few people there, I wouldve thought that mall was abandoned. There were these gross punk wannabe trannies there that were bitch staring us okay. Walked up and down and all around, looking for Rupert Rage but couldnt find it. Us, being the idiots we are, didnt notice the signs at all the escalators saying 'censor escalator' and got the fright of our lives when the escalator which we thought wasnt working suddenly came to life.

The upper floors were even creepier. There was absolutely no one and none of the shops were opened yet even though it was almost noon. There was this big hole in the ceiling and Ray kept saying "someones gonna jump down from it and grab us in a net" over and over. I suh-wear, it felt like one of those movies where the victims are trapped in some abandoned building and the psychopath murderer is watching them without them knowing. Finally found Rupert Rage after asking for directions. We had actually passed by it a couple of times without even realizing. Yes, we can be bimbos at times. The damn store wasnt even open.

Went to the mall next door and bummed around. Saw the light saber Phobys been dying to get. Call me weird but the sales assistant there smelled fucking good. I kept whispering to Ray to casually walk by and smell him so we did that, using all our might to hold back our laughter. Ray said when he was standing next to me while I was talking to her, I kept inhaling deeply between words. HAHAH. Fucking hilarious. He wasnt hot or anything, he just smelled really nice.

Went back to scary centrepoint and once again got bitch stared by those trannies and held hands once we reached the deserted upper floors. Rupert Rage was finally open but didnt have enough cash for a skateboard. I only had enough for a deck but I didnt have any trucks or wheels to fix it to so I needed a full set which was like 500 bucks. The decks alone were RM300. So we bought band tees instead. I got an MCR and Fall Out Boy shirt. *giant grin*

Went to mcds after that. During lunch;
Ray: hey, you know water front right ?
Me: yeah.
Ray: lets ride the sampans !
Me: WHAT ?! dude, those things dont look safe. I dont know how to swim. what if it capsizes or something ? I dont want my MCR shirt to get wet.
Ray: *laughs* "youre more worried about getting your MCR shirt wet than drowning ?"
Me: "well, yeah. I havent even gotten a chance to wear it yet."
Ray: "oh, c'mon. just give it a try. I mean, youre moving soon right ? do this stuff in sarawak while you can cos I dont think kl has sampan rides, man.
Me: okay, okay.

We couldnt finish our fries so we left this for the waiters. :)


Fuck. HAHAH, we're so lame.

Went on the sampan after that. I was scared like fuck okay. I'd never been on a boat before. It didnt go far, it only lasted for like 5 minutes. We couldnt stop giggling, I was SO amused by everything and everyone was staring at us.

Me: "you know, we came out to buy skateboards but we ended up in a sampan instead."
Ray, me: *die laughing*
Me: "so fucking random la. I mean, we were like 'lets go on the sampan ! ok !"
Ray: "actually, it took much more convincing than that, scaredy cat."
Me: "shuttup. ohmygod, if this thing capsizes I think I'd die of shock or fear before I even start drowning. the crocodiles will eat us all !"
Ray: "dude, there arent any crocs. chill out."
*after a few moments of silence*
Me: "I think I like cars better."


thats the sampan.

it only takes you from that bridge to the othr side.

Went to the chinese museum after that since it was like 4 feet away. I dont know what it is with Ray and I and museums. I'd never been to a museum before I met Ray. She randomly takes me to the strangest of places, that girl. HAHAH.

Went running around the middle of the city after that. Thank God Ray was there or I wouldve completely lost my way. I kept walking in the wrong direction and Ray would have to yell "dude, its this way !" Im horrible with directions. We pretended to be tourists when lame malay guys came up to us, pretending to ask for directions and then asking for our numbers. The rest of the day consisted of us running around the streets, screaming MCR songs in the heat of the afternoon, looking for a tattoo parlor, and getting hit on by white men in uglyashell tribal print shirts.
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Uncle Chelvi and his family spent the weekend here. His daughters, Hema,17 and Sangeetha,19 are my second cousins and Ive never even met them before. Yeah, dads side of the family is so big, I dont even know who Im related to, I swear. At family gatherings, people will be coming up to me, talking about how its been so long since theyve seen me and I'll be nodding and smiling, wondering who the hell this mad person is only to find out theyre one of my relatives. Im pretty used to this happening now so at family reunions, every time people Ive never seen before come up to me, talking like we're long lost friends, I just assume we're somehow related.

Aaaaanyways, things were kinda awkward at first but we eventually started talking. Sangeethas studying psychology which I think is so cool and Hemas obsessed with David Archuletta. Hahah, so cute. New cousins.(: They went sight seeing to cultural village and some other sarawak-y places I dont know but I couldnt be bothered to go, not exactly my cup of tea.

Went to church on sunday evening and I swear, church, was hell. I dont hate church or anything even though I can never pay attention throughout mass no matter how hard I try (Ive got the attention span of a new born puppy okay, no kidding). Instead of going to the church in BDC like we usually do, mom randomly decides to go to St. Anne's since we've never been there before. The churches in sarawak are rich and fucking gorgeous okay. West Malaysia churches cant even compare but this one particular church, St. Anne's, is like a more stable, prettier version of a hut. Yes, a hut. Its open air and all wood and doesnt even have fans so it was fucking hot. They had all kinds of pretty lights everywhere but they couldnt fix in a few fans ? I was the only one there in a short skirt and mygawd, all the men, young and old, were staring at my legs, I felt so self conscious.

Suddenly out of nowhere this bat comes flying over my head which freaking scared me and it kept trying to fly into my face. Part of me was hoping it would turn into Edward Cullen even though in Twilight, vampires only take on a human form. HAHAH. After a while, there were two of them and they just kept flying around the church which for some insane reason didnt seem to bother anyone else. Anyone whos close to me, knows how terrified I am of things that fly. I run away from birds and butterflies okay, Im not joking. I just really dont like anything that flies. Except for planes, theyre okay. I couldnt take it anymore so I walked out of church, pretending to answer a phone call. Talked to Manda, Sasha and Shayne on the phone until mass ended cos I refused to go back in there. Shayne found my misery hilarious and wouldnt stop laughing, I wanted to smack him. Thank you Manda, Kelapa and Peanut for keeping me company while I hid from those flying beasts (its my blog, I'll get overdramatic if I want okay). Dont any of you dare label me as one of those stupid whingey, whiny girly girls, okay. Im not.

Sent uncle Chelvi and the family off to the airport on Sunday night and went to Boulevard to buy a cheaper skateboard. I named it Spider for reasons to embarrassing to admit. Phoby, Ray, shut up. I can skate now, still a little shaky but I can skate. I really need to learn how to ollie, man. I got my first skating injury, Im so fucking proud. *giant grin* I have two marks on my ankle which I thought were mosquito bites until they turned really red the next day. Its fading off now, though. I think its awesome cos now, my ankle is covered in colourful plasters which Im currently obsessed with. I feel so cool, okay.
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School was pretty fun today. Did experiments during chemistry. Watched Mr.Alfonso (private nickname we gave our chem teacher) drop potassium and sodium in distilled water to watch it fizz and catch fire. Pretty. I liiiike. We were only allowed to use lithium when we experimented ourselves cos its not as reactive. Stupid safety rules. The second round, when we heated it up with the bunsen burner, it was really pretty when the flame got bigger after putting it in the oxygen jar. When chemistry was over, I had an extra piece of lithium and there was a beaker of lime water on the table. Ray and I wanted to see what would happen if we dropped lithium into limewater. So we did, and both of us went to different sides of the chem lab and ducked in case anything caught fire. Nothing happened though, it had the same reaction it did with distilled water. Felt pretty stupid after that. HAHAH.

Random;

Me: "lets all be tree huggers."
Ray: *immediately grabs me and hugs me*
Me: "IM NOT A TREE, YOU IDIOT !"
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Phoby: "Ray, you got 10 cents ?"
Ray: "I only got 20 cents."
Phoby: "give it to me. I'll give ya back 10 cents."
Ray: *hands Phoby the 20 cents.*
Phoby: "yay, now I can buy the drink."
Ray: *talks fast* "hey, you gotta gimme the 10 cents change, man cos I need coins to call my dad with the public phone or he's gonna leave me here and-"
Phoby: *hands her 10 cents*
Ray: *stares at it* "oooohh, shiny..."

I know I havent updated in a while apart from the previous post but that was just a rant so it doesnt really count.

Im not going to go into much detail cos honestly, I can barely remember the ridiculously stupid convos I usually have that I like posting up so much.

Lets see... I went to a museum ! For the first time in my life (Im not kidding, Ive never been to a museum before). I've been staying back at school with the girls quite often to build our water rocket for physics. Ray and I took a break and went to this cd store we found that sells music we listen to which is pretty hard to find in other stores. They were selling music tees too and I bought a Bullet For My Valentine t-shirt. I asked the guy if he would give it to me for free but he said no :(. Its pretty damn big but I love it. Ray finally got her Alesana and Funeral For A Friend cds.

When we got back to school, bragging about our cool stuff (yes, we're lame like that), Phoby made us buy her candy from the canteen.
Me: "hey, I never knew there was a grave near our school."
Ray: "yeah, people die a lot in kuching. the museum is over there."

Me: "really ? I didnt know that. Ive never been to a museum before."

Ray: "you wanna go ?"

Me: "what ? OKAY !" :D

And we ditched the project without telling anyone and walked to the museum. So fucking random. HAHAH.

It was fuunn. I was so excited, I almost threw up (I get nauseous if I feel over-excited, nervous, etc). We tried blending in with this group of old dutch tourists until we realized we werent white and I was still in my school uniform. HAHAH. Ray knew the place like the back of her hand. She showed me the life sized replica of the long house and went inside. We climbed the wooden ladder which was scary cos the steps were so damn narrow. I swear, theres literally less than 3 inches of space to place your feet okay. Ray and I were running around the whole museum like loons. Theres this huge field outside the museum which we ran across, holding hands. Fuuun. Oh, and Ray is afraid of cars and busy roads so we held hands and kept screaming and giggling every time we crossed the roads. HAHAH.

No pictures from that day cos we randomly decided to go so neither of us brought our phones or cameras.

Phoby and Theresa were waiting for us in school. They thought we were kidnapped and got worried. Aww. We told them about our random museum adventure and went again the next day with Theresa.

We pretty much did the same thing the next day. Theresa brought us to this other museum, all walking distance from our school. Ray and I needed the loo so Theresa waited for us in the gift shop. We got curious when we saw that no one was in the mens toilet so we went in. Now Ive seen everything. HAHAH. We were camwhoring in there until we heard foot steps so we ran and locked ourselves inside one of the stalls. Waited in there until the guy was gone. Continued camwhoring once he was gone but we heard someone coming so once again, we locked ourselves in one of the stalls. Couldnt stop giggling the whole time. Gotta love Ray. I mean, who else would sneak into the mens toilet with me ? Fucking hilarious.

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Piiiiiiictures:

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this is what happens when you give Ray pepsi.

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caaandid.
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the mens toilet we snuck into. HAHAH.
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Ray: "so this is what its like to be a guy."
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in the replica of the long house.

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man, I look like such a malay girl.
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ahh, sweeeeet airconditioning.

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getting ready to blast Ray.

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Ray: "kill me ! kill me !"

Me: "boy, youre excited about dying."

Ray: *calms down* "its the pepsi man."

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Idk, dont ask.

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Jump ! Omg, so retarded la.
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Look at Rays retarded pose.

I was trying really hard not to fall into the water.
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we look ridiculous lah.

I dont know wtf we were doing.

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oh, kisses.

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"eeeyhh, whats that on my- Theresa did you just take a picture ?!"

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caaaandid.

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Been staying back after school a lot lately to build the rockets for physics. Surprisingly it works. It flew almost 40 metres when we blasted it. The second one, which is the parachute rocket flew up higher than the roof of the school hall. We were so proud. *giant grin*

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Random pictures:

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the hearts we found in 5Sci2.

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me. (:

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Ray :)
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Phoby :) doesnt she look adorable ?

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Will update on my weekend with the family and running around kuching, screaming MCR songs on the streets with Ray soon. (: